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IN CHARACTER

Character Name: Sam Winchester
Canon: Supernatural
Canon Point: 15x13 "Destiny's Child"

In-Game Tattoo Placement: This sleeve on his left arm. He also has an existing anti-possession tattoo on the upper left of his chest.
Current Health/Status: Physically, Sam is in peak shape, a little tired from holding off Hell Hounds. Mentally, he is exhausted. He's worried about his son. He was recently mentally broken by God himself and he's still struggling with it. He does not take any medication, but he might do well with some!
Age: 37
Species: Human, with a little demon blood running through his system, thanks to a demon in his infancy.

Content Warnings: family death, suicidal ideology, coercion, torture, loss, existential hopelessness, murder, violence, assault, self-sacrifice, alcoholism, substance abuse.

History: Here!

CRAU History and Impact: N/A
Personality:

In a lot of ways, Sam Winchester is the bookish brother, often looked at as the brains to Dean Winchester's brawn. He's usually the one seen researching on his laptop/tablet/a computer. He's the more organized of the two and the one that spends his time off going through the Men of Letters archives. He's the brother that went to college and almost went to law school. Some would say he's also the quieter of the two brothers, especially as a kid. But, underneath a quiet exterior lies a psyche that's quite battered. One where optimism waxes and wains depending upon how hopeless things feel. Luckily, any time he reaches his lowest point, he gets back up, determined to find a way through it.

As a kid, Sam Winchester lost his mother young, and like his brother Dean, he had to grow up fast. Even though Dean tried to parent his little brother, Sam had no choice. Sam either stayed back, alone, in motel rooms, or with his brother Dean, sometimes for weeks at a time, while his father, John Winchester went on supernatural hunts. Sam went from wanting to be able to hunt, to prove himself, to feeling stifled eventually and wanting more. He was the brother that wanted to go to college and that wanted the best for himself.

Though he doesn't try, Sam makes friends easily. In various flashbacks and throughout the series, Sam is the disarmingly pleasant and charming brother, that can easily insert himself into a case. Where Dean flirts or uses machismo, Sam is just genuinely nice. And empathetic. He cares about other people. This care he develops and his empathy leads to a deeper capacity for forgiveness. While Sam can hold a grudge when or if you wrong a family member or a friend, Sam is usually the brother that finds it in his heart to move past it. While losing his mother, Mary, when Jack loses control is devastating, Sam moves past needing to kill him to wanting to save him. He forgives Dean multiple times throughout the series when Dean has outright lied. Dean manipulates his brother to housing an angel so he's not lost to him, and lies to Sam for months about it. Dean keeps back that Jack will die in trying to end God for an entire case. Dean keeps things to himself and though Sam gets frustrated, he forgives Dean. Make no mistake, he lashes out, he yells. But, he has to move forward.

Sam's the brother that moves forward, that presses on. Even after God gets him to admit hopelessness and they miss the opportunity to wound him in the casino, Sam still fights on. Even when their written luck goes up in smoke and they're turned into regular people, Sam keeps going. It's more dangerous. They're more clumsy. Same actually gets sick. But, he keeps going. He's the one that finds a clue to retrieving their luck.

Sam is always researching, even on his downtime. When there's an answer needed, he will take hours. And when the going gets tough, Sam barely sleeps. He finds answers he needs and if he doesn't find them, he keeps looking. He could give Dean a run for his money with how much he doesn't take care of himself during the bad times. When all hope is lost, he throws himself in. When Dean was possessed by Michael and missing, Sam stepped up and led the hunters, at the cost of his mental and physical well being. He barely slept, barely ate. He subsisted on alcohol and hope. He even barely shaved.

Sam is known for his depressive episodes. Like his brother, he can wallow. Unlike his brother, he functions through it. He fakes his way. He perseveres. But, he's no less broken for that time. He also believes that therapy can help and comes out of the therapy appointment with a helpful shapeshifter the best out of the three Winchesters. If he could go to therapy normally, he probably would.

Unlike Dean, Sam has alcoholic tendencies, and they're definitely hereditary, but, he can stay off the sauce if need be. Coffee, on the other hand, is a necessity. All that said, Sam will have a beer or some whiskey if you offer it to him. There is nothing better than a cold one.

For the most part, Sam treats his body like a temple. He goes for runs and works out. He's a vegetarian and berates Dean for continuously trying to get him to eat meat and for forgetting to buy fake bacon. He's disciplined in this, too. He will politely eat food made for them, like when they stop by Jodie's.

Sam will reach across the aisle when help is needed, often the one reaching out to Rowena before she became more like family to him. This comes with time, once he realizes demons, angels, etc, are people, too. Garth, a friend of the family is a werewolf in a family of werewolves. Sam has graduated from 'all monsters need to be hunted,' to, some "monsters" are people to. He's able to put himself in their shoes. He's compassionate, sometimes to a fault. He lets an old friend, Amy, go when she vows to not kill anyone else to save her son.

Often Sam has no problem making the hard decisions, but he still struggles with them afterward. He is the more remorseful brother. Whether this is from people he's needed to kill (often women he's slept with, it's a trope), or people they've imprisoned (Jack), or simply actions he's feel he's had no choice in making. He still regrets. He will go back on his word if he feels he has no choice. And though he doesn't like it, he will agree to change course if he knows they have to.

Sam has the capacity to lie, often out of compassion. With small exceptions, he no longer lies to those closest to him. Where at one time he was very secretive and untrustworthy, he's the brother that will tell their close network of hunters and friends about what's going on. When returning to Jodie or Donna, or Garth, they ask and prod Dean, who in turn, looks to Sam, annoyed. Yes, Dean. Sam told them. Because they're family and they deserve to know. That said, he lies to Jack, out of compassion, but later regrets it. He doesn't even like white lies. At one time, he did lie about seeing and sleeping with Ruby, and drinking her blood. He also lied about Lucifer manifesting inside his head and driving him crazy. There are still things he keeps to himself until the last possible moment.

For a long time, Sam felt very much like the other. He felt he didn't belong. His friends in school were the misfits and loners, and he never became close enough to keep in touch, because he moved away shortly after. He never had longterm ties outside of his brother, his dad, and family friends. He tells Dean outright that "I'm not like you," often separating the two of them in his mind. Yes, they're brothers, but Sam is something else. All of this was exacerbated when he learns early on that he's a large part in the Devil's plan. Sam is one of hundreds of kids that Yellow Eyes, or Azazel, fed him demon blood as a baby. Sam begins to experience psychic episodes, and eventually discovers that when he drinks more demon blood, he can exorcise demons with his mind. Everyone but Ruby condemns this practice and tells him it will tap into a deeper darkness. Sam carries the fact that he opened the last seal to free Lucifer and he spends episodes blaming himself. Self loathing still stings along the edges for Sam Winchester, and it will never fully go away, but it's buried deep now. But, it's the people he cares about that beat that down.

Like his brother, Sam spent time in Hell. All of those memories came down at once after a mental wall was put up to keep them at bay. He is not as haunted by Hell as Dean is, but, like his brother, he remembers everything.

Sam is all about the greater good. And where once both Winchester brothers had a death wish, Sam has never been afraid of dying, especially if it saves everyone, or even more especially, saves his brother. He's sacrificed himself for Dean, and, for the world, several times over. He understands when they reach the point of no return. When Jo and Ellen have to sacrifice themselves. When Rowena has no choice but to sacrifice herself.

Where at one time, Sam wanted nothing to do with hunting, he knows that being a hunter is what he was meant to be. He's good at hunting and he likes saving people. While he's accepted that, he's also playing with a much larger piece of the narrative and a larger part of being Sam Winchester in the later seasons. To a large extent, Sam believes that every choice Dean and him have made has been orchestrated by God himself. God, or, Chuck, as he likes to be called, disguised himself as a prophet among the people and then went off world until he had no choice but to intervene. At first, he helped the Winchesters, and humanity, but he got to a point where the story he was writing didn't cooperate and when Dean refused to kill Jack, he put events into endgame, released souls from Hell and started destroying worlds one by one. Sam has been tortured with visions of other Sam and Dean's, all of them who have died or ended up killing one another (and one set that turned into vampires). But, Sam still finds hope. He falls for a hunter, Eileen, and says out loud that this, this isn't written. He knows he loves his brother, and Cas, and Jack. And he knows there's always an alternative. Even though it feels like they've been running on a hamster wheel, he pushes on.

*I have spoken to most of the players, and this big piece of him is going to remain more in brackets for now. Chuck and a malevolent, omniscient God is not a wonderful idea to insert into already fragile people, but I do need to make a note of it. This is a huge driving force for him at the moment.

To Sam, family is everything. Dean, Cas, and Jack are his immediate family. Jack is like a son to him. Hands down. He does not struggle with that idea. He does struggle with the idea of losing Jack. Jodie, Donna, and Jodie's family, Claire, Alex, Kaia, and Patience, are also his family. John and Mary will always be his mother and father. And thanks to various events throughout the series, he's reconciled his relationship with the both of them. He got to actually experience and learn from and remember his mother, and he came to terms with not being what his father wanted. (And ultimately becoming exactly what his father wanted.) He struggled for a long time thinking he wasn't what his father wanted, wanting to breakaway from expectation, but, in truth it's said he has more John inside him than Mary. He can be militant. He can be laser focused. And, ultimately, he got and strives to protect, his family.

Abilities/Powers/Weaknesses & Warping:

🔪 Sam Winchester is a self taught hacker, able to hack into police databases, traffic cameras and building security.

🔪 He's also proficient in combat, physically fit, and good with most weapons. He is a good shot and merciless with a knife, but he's also able to improvise in any setting. He has a high pain tolerance.

🔪 Sam has extensive, far reaching knowledge of lore and supernaturals, at least from his world and is an avid reader.

🔪 Sam studied witchcraft under Rowena, unofficially becoming her apprentice. In his world, the kind of witch he would be would be classified as a student. (It should be noted that, by Supernatural canon standards, any person with the right ingredients and the right incantation can perform witchcraft.) However, in game, it is noted that exorcisms, Devil Traps, etc can be warped and may summon something or have an even nastier effect...

🔪 If Sam drinks enough demon blood, he will be able to exorcise a demon with his mind and send them to Hell. Or, in Deerington's case, into another body? He's 100% uninterested in this. I'm just being thorough.

Inventory:

+ Dean's trademark black 1967 Chevrolet Impala
+ with a duffel bag in the trunk containing
+ keys to the Men of Letters bunker
+ Sam's gun, loaded
+ the Book of the Damned (and its myriad of probably warped spells if they ever tried anything, all with mod approval)
+ Sam's laptop from home, connected charger

Writing Samples: Test Drive top level | Sam & Samifer

OUT OF CHARACTER

Player Name: Brandon
Player Age: 30+
Player Contact: PM and pepperwood

Other Characters In Game: N/A
In-Game Tag If Accepted: Sam Winchester: Brandon
Permissions for Character: Here.
Are you comfortable with prominent elements of fourth-walling?: It's built into Sam's canon. Between the book series and the show he knows exists on a parallel Earth, he's unfazed by fourthwalling. As am I!
What themes of horror/psychological thrillers do you enjoy the most?: I really love psychological horror, and mounting dread. I love allegorical and I do love a slasher. And a good ghost story.
Is there anything in particular you absolutely need specific content warnings for?: Honestly, I don't have specific triggers. I hate vivid depictions of animal death, or death in general, but I'll read it! I will note anything that does as it comes.
Additional Information: I've spoken to almost all the other Supernatural canon players, and I'm drawing a very clear line in the sand between what Sam can or will reveal and what Sam can't. And I'll work with everyone!